Realization.

I have been realizing more and more just how fast, and unexpected things can change. It doesn't always necessarily mean bad change...just change. My best friend and I haven't spent any time together, in God knows how long, and that just sucks for me. I mean when I look at her I just don't feel like I know anything about her, or her life anymore. I never thought our friendship would hit that level. She just seems so busy and wrapped up in her church life, and I mean I understand that. My church, and church family are very important to me too, but I just feel like she doesn't put forth effort to spend time with me. I don't know, Maybe I'm just being selfish. I really feel like I was the one putting most of the effort into it, and now that I'm not and I've given up..there is no relationship. Which makes me think that I was the one holding it together in the first place. I'm learning that you can't put all of your faith and trust into one person when you're my age. It is just a heartbreak waiting to happen. Another thing I find pretty crazy is that I am about to be a senior. A senior. I feel like I just started high school, and now I only have one year left. It is so surreal and scary to me. I have taken my act twice, and improved on the second one, which really made me happy. I am looking into colleges, and having people tell me I need to figure out what I want to do with my life. And I think that scares me most of all. My life. That is a big deal. It's my life, I mean duh, but how do you just choose what to do with your life. That is a very big decision that shouldn't be taken lightly. And I definitely don't plan on doing so. As of right now, All I do know is that I am more than ready for summer. My junior year has flown by, and I'm ready to experiance my senior year with all of my friends. I'm ready for his next, new, exciting chapter in my life. I just hope everyone else can keep up! :)