Happy Happy Joy Joy!!! =)

God continues to show me his beauty and how much he loves me and it is INCREDIBLEEEE!!! I have never felt so loved by God in my entire life, and I just know it can only grow and grow, as I grow in him...so that just pumps me uppp!! haha

PLUS I am pretty sure I have the most amazing boyfriend in the entire world. I cannot thank God enough for blessing me with him. He is just so incredible, and sweet, and Loveeesss Jesus! Ahhhh, I am such a happy girl at the moment, and as long as I have my God..a happy girl Forever!!!!

Undeserving.

I think it's pretty crazy how one person can make you so happy.
I also think it's crazy how when you least expect it God puts the most amazing people in your life. I am so undeserving, yet he gives me all of these incredible people, and blessings. I am just letting it all soak in, and loving every minute I have with all of my church family.

I am blessed beyond belief.

:)

With the Help of David Huff....

So today has been a pretty good day. Well, I should say yesterday..considering it's 12:25 am. I woke up, got in a fight with my mom, made up with her, went to lunch with her...had a great conversation (something that hasn't happened with my mom in God knows how long), came back home and got to relax until I headed over to Margie and David's house. When I got to Margie's house I got greeted by the cutest little man you could ever meet..and no, I'm not talking about David, it's ROMAN guys! haha He is just such a little blessing to me, I just love him so much. He has the best sense of humor out of anyone I know, and that's a lot of people. Anyway, I had been feeling weird like all day, and I realized that it was just an attack from the devil...which really made me mad, and it felt like there was nothing I could do to just get rid of the mood I was in. So we ate Margie's delicious meal and headed off to Living To Go church to see some crazy people play some crazy awesome worship music! haha It was amazing and definitely what I needed to get out of my funk. It's crazy how the devil knows when to attack, and excatly how..but I just need to learn how to put on my armor and press on. I have God on my team, so how could I not win, right? ;) Annnnyways, while I was at the Huff's house I was talking to David about my future and what he thought I should do...and I must say, he gave some pretty decent advice. I told him that I wanted to be a missionary, and thought it would be smart to go to college and major in business and minor in bible and ministry...but he shot that down pretty quick...

So guess what guys?!? I'm gonna be going to Vol State my first two years, getting involved in as many missions that I can, and becoming glued to The Church at Indian Lake. Then, once I'm done with college, hopefully y'all can ship me off to some other country so I can spread God's work to the rest of the world. How awesome will that be?!!!! :)

I'm pumped.

God is good, isn't he?

:)

I'm Ready! :)

I have been finding myself so frustrated and anxious with just, well...myself. Because I know in my heart that I am meant to do something great, and I know that for real, with everything in me..but I just wish it could become more clear as to what..when..and how. Don't we all though? I know that I am called to do missions work. I have known that for a long time, but I haven't ever really grasped the concept that that is for real what I am supposed to do with my life. It is so crazy to think that this is my last year in high school, and when it's over I will be beginning my real life. What I was called to do. Not that I can't start now, by telling people what God has done for me, and my life..cause I can. We come in contact with so many people that it makes it easy for us to share that with people on a daily basis. But I am ready to get out into the world, where people have never even heard the name Jesus, and let them know how real he is, and how much of an impact he has and is continuing to make in my life. I'm ready for college, and I'm ready to be challenged. I am so thankful for everything that I have, and everyone. I couldn't have asked for better people in my life, and I mean that with all of my heart. God is doing some amazing things in, and around me..and I couldnt be more excited to see what else he has in store for me :)

Realization.

I have been realizing more and more just how fast, and unexpected things can change. It doesn't always necessarily mean bad change...just change. My best friend and I haven't spent any time together, in God knows how long, and that just sucks for me. I mean when I look at her I just don't feel like I know anything about her, or her life anymore. I never thought our friendship would hit that level. She just seems so busy and wrapped up in her church life, and I mean I understand that. My church, and church family are very important to me too, but I just feel like she doesn't put forth effort to spend time with me. I don't know, Maybe I'm just being selfish. I really feel like I was the one putting most of the effort into it, and now that I'm not and I've given up..there is no relationship. Which makes me think that I was the one holding it together in the first place. I'm learning that you can't put all of your faith and trust into one person when you're my age. It is just a heartbreak waiting to happen. Another thing I find pretty crazy is that I am about to be a senior. A senior. I feel like I just started high school, and now I only have one year left. It is so surreal and scary to me. I have taken my act twice, and improved on the second one, which really made me happy. I am looking into colleges, and having people tell me I need to figure out what I want to do with my life. And I think that scares me most of all. My life. That is a big deal. It's my life, I mean duh, but how do you just choose what to do with your life. That is a very big decision that shouldn't be taken lightly. And I definitely don't plan on doing so. As of right now, All I do know is that I am more than ready for summer. My junior year has flown by, and I'm ready to experiance my senior year with all of my friends. I'm ready for his next, new, exciting chapter in my life. I just hope everyone else can keep up! :)